Did you ever feel as if you don’t quite know what theory in life to believe or what really works? I feel like that at times. For awhile now, I have been working on manifesting certain things in my life. So far, some things have not come into fruition as of yet. This has made me feel manifestation is not working for me. Maybe because I want it to happen in the blink of an eye…I don’t know.
I know things do not always happen in an instance, however, this lack of evidence has caused me to have some questions over the past few days: Is it because I am not truly believing? Is it because I am not doing it the right way? What could it be?
I’ve also been working on changing my subconscious mind, which can be a battle in and of itself; however, much needed when working on creating the life I desire. My mind wants to return to old thoughts and fears. I have to be aware of this when it happens so I do not continue in old thought patterns that do not serve me. It is in these moments I have to remember to say my mantras repeatedly, which amazingly after hearing the repetition changes my mood and perception instantaneously.
The beginning of summer, I bought a nice annual combo planter for my balcony. It had white petunias, some greens, and little pink flowers. For whatever reason, not too long after, the pink flowers died. Meanwhile, the rest of the planter filled out nicely.
This brings us to now, the month of September. Knowing the cold weather is coming near, about two weeks ago I was looking at my flowers and verbalized my wishes for those pink flowers that only gave me their visual pleasure for a short time, to come back before the cold weather kicks in. Well lo’ and behold, about a week later I started noticing a few pink flower buds. Then, I noticed more and more.
This morning I went out to look at my flowers as I do everyday. I was amazed how the pink flowers are continuing to increase. I questioned this event by asking myself, “Did these flowers just happen to resurrect on their own or did I manifest them?” I went inside to get my spray bottle to give my flowers a misting. When I came back outside, to my surprise, a praying mantis was on my third floor balcony rail. Never before have I seen a praying mantis in the two years I am living at this apartment. I had pigeon land on the front window of my car, and humming birds and tree frogs visit me on my balcony, but never a praying mantis until today.
I felt this was an omen; a sign from God/Universe. When I looked up the meaning, it was exactly what I needed. I have not been meditating consistently. I am looking for direction in a certain area of my life. I believe the answers to the questions I have for that area live inside of me. I am always so busy, therefore, all the distractions take away from the time I need to quiet the noise long enough to let those moments of epiphany come through.
Instead, I am going though the rat-race being frustrated with unanswered questions simply because I have not made time to hear that still small voice that lives in my heart, rather it is always drowned out by the loud noise inside my head and around me.
When I read the articles- which I have the links for below-regarding the meaning of a praying mantis visitation, I realized that little alien looking insect was sent at this exact time to send me a message which was to reinforce what I already knew and was brought to my attention a couple of months prior, however, once again I fell short.
Back in July, I randomly went on Facebook and found in one of the groups I am a part of, a woman was giving a free card reading on Facebook Live. I happened to catch the event right when it started. She was pulling one card for anyone that asked her. Of course I requested a card be pulled, and the card that came out from me was: meditation. The card read, “Mediation Brings Answers.” I felt my eyes get big. This message resonated with me so much! Prior to this, I kept telling myself how I needed to meditate consistently in order to quiet my mind and obtain answers. Now here it is staring me in my face.
Now back to this recent event. I learned the praying mantis is a sign of stillness. They are a symbol of meditation and contemplation, meaning to be still and go within. Their pre-strike pose symbolizes balance and patience. I feel as though my question regarding my manifestation of the little pink flowers was answered through this insect that holds the symbolism I needed to be reminded of. It occurred to me that maybe I did indeed manifest those pink flowers that have not been present for months just through my words and specific desire for them since I knew exactly what I wanted.
Although I do know some specifics I want for my life, there are parts that are obscured. I need to be obedient with what God/Universe has been patiently telling me through messages and signs. As soon as I choose to do my part and meditate, the rest will flow. Sitting in silence will give me the clear answers I need, then I can speak specifically and manifest because I will be confident in what I am speaking out into the atmosphere.
There is a process and preparation that goes with the journey. The sign sent to me today is enough to ruffle up my faith that may have been diminishing. Answers to questions and reminders come in different forms. Sometimes, through an insect such as a praying mantis.
I can either choose to listen, knowing what I am supposed to do based off of current and previous events, or I can fall back into old patterns which will have me continually going around the mountain and wandering in the wilderness just wasting time, which then produces more and more frustration, keeping the battle going . Doing the work is for my higher good and purpose. I must trust the process.
https://www.whats-your-sign.com/animal-symbolism-mantis.html
https://www.californiapsychics.com/blog/angels-guides/meaning-praying-mantis-sighting.html
I wrote all the above earlier in the day. I had to add this part because when I came home hours later, I found the praying mantis moved from the rail, and now was on the greens that share the same pot with the pink flowers . If I had even the slightest reservation of what this all meant before, this additional sign that now seemed to be screaming at me was definitely reassurance.
